shifted;
mas-querade.blogspot.com
pls relink :)




okay, since I smartly didn't get the password of the campcraft blog correct; i shall dedicate entries here :D

to the whole comm :
I seriously love you guys. You guys have fought so hard and came so far. Just one more week to go to the prelims? Going to think of you guys 24/7 in the prelims. Please do remember to train hard and take care of you dear hands k? <3

Team A
although you guys can sub 12 now (and yes I'm super proud of you people) please work and achieve better timing and quality cos we all believe you can do it :D do us proud! jiayou jiayou jiayou!

Team B
heys people, dont ever lose heart of your skills and confidence of each other. its been amazing seeing your progress and there's so much more you guys can achieve. looking forward to your improved pitch!

okayy. individual messages. pls get the people to come visit?

joanna: love you dear. hope ya blueblack goes away and train hard for your round lash and clove hitch k? you can do it de!

natalie: ditto for the round lash and clove hitch. pull hard train hard and all da way girl. study hard too yes? love ya !

shiyun: heyys dear, you seriously very cute. continue working hard on your triangle and we will see perfect angles and direction frm ya :) love~

becca: dearrr, peg hard peg fast peg accurately. have all the faith in the world for you , train hard k? love baba~

krystal: perv! haha. pls keep your laughter and highnes under control esp when you're whacking round with the mallet and poles. you can do it! love.

luiza: dearest vice capt, jiayou yea? more stress will be on ya since trainers are gone. dont lose heart and train hard ! eat more too haha. love ya

rachel: twine mistress~~ haha. jiayou lots for all your lashings, they have improved lots throughout the weeks, all the way dear! love!

joy: heys dear. all the way for pegging and lashing, snccc as you said, will rock the pitch! you can do it de! love ya

vivien: hi the super hyper one :) jiayou lots for gadget yea? i know you can do it when you put in 100 % and yes i wont let her become too black? love!

valarie: heyys, all the way for gadget. i know you can tie well and make use of all the time you guys have left! love :D

sohteng: dearest captain- do lead your team well, we are so close to the prelims, and we all have faith in you :D jiayou k? love ya

jessica: guitar partner, dont traumatise anymore people with the pole cos i know your guyline will be so well done it wont happen. go for the triangle! <3

meiling: heyy all the way for lashings and clove hitch. rmb i want a 10/10 quality pitch when i get back yea? :D love!

charlotte: haha. who is that lee person? anyway jiayou a million times for lashings and hitches, you know you can do it! love ya~

pan: heys, all the way yes? i know you gt the ability to do all jobs so gotta encourage you for being such a great sport :) you rock love ya~

yating: haha you looked darn pretty when i saw you today? jiayou for pegging and ponchos! i know you can do it :D love

karen: puayyyy! -grins- haha all the way for main guy yea? i know you can make the basha taut and nice :D speak up and be louder. love!

haiping: yo! yi ding yao duo duo jiayou. wo zhi dao ni yi ding xing de, bu neng gu fu zhong wang o :D all the way for main guy! ai ne ~

audrey: heyys dear. I love the cactus? all the way for gadget and the tight tight twine lashings. i know you guys can do it! love ya :)

beijin: heyyo twine mistress, jiayou jiayou for gadget and twine cutting? sit properly -grins- i know you can do it de! love

rebekah: heyyy. you are a part of us, so all the way and keep everyone's spirit high cos i know you will be cheering them on at the pitch! love ya~

sylvia: ahh dearest captain, a lot of responsibility lies on you now yea? jiayou k? we know you can do it de. all the way for pegging! :) love.

snccc- we shall rock the pitch.
as the girls go pegging/ pitching on on on!




it weird I guess
disappearing for about a week
just can't help wondering
if my absence will be noticed?
been a lil bratty on msn today. -sheepish grin-

when i'am gone for OBS,
i'm going to be darn worried for my cactus?
pictures of my cactus
its super cute :)
I hope someone remembers to water it daily

missing many people :)
entries dedicated in respective blogs.
4d back row :D haha. pls dont fall aleep during lessons k?

help me check this out X)

i'm a big big girl
in a big big world
it's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do feel I will
miss you much
miss you much





I'm awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear

before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear

It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out

but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

It takes so much out of me to pretend
maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

Lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again'

cause lately something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down

wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again




For all the over-worked people :)

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird, I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd, but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed,but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
It’s all right, you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy, or anything

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy,
Its not easy to be me




guess its time for me to cherish what I have?
after the inspirational thursday session
went round hugging all my dearest squadmates
I love you guys! :D

w.w.a.c i know you love me! haha. :)
let me eat you!

15 for a moment





quote of the day :
"oranges are very important!!"

:)

NYR:
PASS all tests from now on
Hand in ALL homework on time

tell me I can and I will :D

everyone get well soon ~
start of project liberation tmr!
can't wait !

far away for far too long




Cel; Kaili
good job today :)
glad to have been debating with you guys
we lost; but with laurels

Sirui; Mabel; Fanny; Ivy
thanks for the support!
you guys rock haha.

3 way convo's and 6 way chat at macs! :D
I <3 project liberation~
we'll rock the night!
red, black, goth, punk

will be stoning with miss gan at guitar tmr
although there'll be a very amusing character.
I think guitar tuning sounds super funny?
always end up collasping into giggles.

thank you for helping me today :)
you know who you are.
appreciate it.




everyone around me is like so stressed up
they are all falling ill?
get well soon dears :)

phone has died.
can't recieve nor sms anyone.

what's done is over.
lets move on.

will the real slim shady
please stand up
please stand up
please stand up




its a crazy crazy world
spinning way too fast
outta my control

I guess you dont see how hard I've tried
You see more of the mistakes I made along the way
I'm sorry that I don't live up to your expectations
I'm gonna try harder.

I dont know when to stop.
I guess I dont know what's my limits.
haha. how much longer?

too many unspoken rules to follow.

I'm sorry that you think you dont mean much to me- because you do.
I'm sorry. Give us faith.

CCC!- joy, vivien, krystal, lu, rachel, natalie, shiyun, valerie, nana, sohteng, becca
all the way k?
lets train hard fight hard together.

and to my dearest partner/ trainer.
jiayou. I <3 you :)
get well soon! and you're banned frm standing in the rain again!

willy wonka alarm clock! thanks for being so very sweet and annoying :)
good morning starshine, the sun is bright and the earth says hello!

watching as it all falls down




Goodbyes make you think, they make you realize what you've had, what you've lost and what meaning it is.
It's nice to be important, but more important to be nice.
Sometimes, when you're mad, you have the right to be mad, but you don't have the right to be cruel.
We are never given dreams without also being given the power to make them come true.
God never closes a door without opening a window. He always gives us something better when he takes something away.
We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, "Why did this happen to me?" unless we ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes our way.
The most wasted day of all is that on which we have not laughed -Sebastien Roch Nicolas Chamfort.
Remember, no man is a failure who has friends. -from "It's a Wonderful Life"
No matter how bad it seems it could always be worse Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
We could all take a lesson from crayons: Some are sharp, some are beautiful, some have weird names, all are different colors; but they all have to learn to live in the same box.
Life is like a coin, you can spend it any way you want but you can only spend it once.
Remember, you're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think- Christopher Robin
IF YOU WANT THE RAINBOW YOU HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THE RAIN
"I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches." Alice Roosevelt Longworth
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want. " Ben Stein
" As a scientist, I am not sure anymore that life can be reduced to a class struggle, to dialectical materialism, or any set of formulas. Life is spontaneous and it is unpredictable, it is magical. I think that we have struggled so hard with the tangible that we have forgotten the intangible."Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider
" He who has a why to live can bear almost any how. " Friedrich Nietzsche
"May you live every day of your life. "Jonathan Swift
" Once you have been confronted with a life-and-death situation, trivia no longer matter. Your perspective grows and you live at a deeper level. There's no time for pettiness. " Margaretta (Happy) Rockefeller
" All of the animals except man know that the principal business of life is to enjoy it. "Samuel Butler
" Men are born to succeed, not to fail. " Henry David Thoreau
"Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise. " Cyril Connolly
" Be willing to make decisions. That's the most important quality in a good leader. Don't fall victim to what I call the "ready-aim-aim-aim-aim syndrome." You must be willing to fire. -- T. Boone Pickens




hmm, not a random decision
contemplated this for a pretty long while.
closing this blog.
early merry christmas :D

unsaid things




just a random challenge to anyone who's bored

eat everything on this menu :
at your own risk! :D

-tom yum marshmellows
-tea floats
-steamed mutton
-chocolate sardine cake
-vanilla watermelon toast
-garlic banana ice cream
-durian coffee shake
-strawberry oysters
-rambutan sushi
-honey lime mashed potatoes
-maple syrup whipped cream ramen
-curry floats
-green pea fondue
-spinach orange soup
-chocalate cheese with pepper
-soya bean crab smoothie
-mint fried chicken with rainbow sprinkles
-stewed pork chops with yogurt
-red bean carrot stew
-fish mix cornflakes

new additions:
-tomato chocolate cake
-chocolate chip you tiao with almonds
-laska fried squid in jelly
-ladies finger in vanilla with ketchup
-cheese and salted fish
-asparagus ice cream
-coconut mushroom crackers
-cotton candy prawns
-coke brinjal
-pepper pear pie
-onion pancakes


all indigestion sustained is none of my responsiblily :)
amusing conversation haha.




highlight of the day
jessica fell into the pool! :D

person at yamaha thought we were sisters
she went "your sister helping you sign up arh?"
sylvia reckons i'm the younger one
although i'm older by 3 days.
en says me and sicca gt same eyes! haha

3 wonderful days in a row :)

wanna live in that kinda house when i grow up.




Sun's up
A little after twelve
Make breakfast for myself
Leave the work for someone else
People say
They say that it's just a phase
They tell me to act my age,
Well I am

On this perfect day,
Nothing's standing in my way
On this perfect day,
When nothing can go wrong

It's the perfect day,
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
I could stay, forever as I am
On this perfect day

Sun's down
A little after ten
I pick up all my friends
In my Mercedes-Benz

Wake up
Don't tell me it's just a dream
'Cause when I've had enough
You'll hear me say,
Now don't you try to rain on my

Perfect day,
Nothing's standing in my way

On this perfect day,
Nothing can go wrong
It's the perfect day,
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

On this perfect day,
Nothing can go wrong
I'm in the race
But I've already won
And getting there can
Be half the fun,
So don't stop me
Till I'm good and done,

Don't you try to rain on my
Perfect, day
On this perfect day
On this perfect day




sad.
guilty.
angry.




gomen nasai.




okay.
I better get down to homework.
even sicca says I rock, which means I'm screwed. DIE. haha.
anyway the layout is to remind me to stay offline. so pls shoot me to death if you see me online. -nods-

i owe lots of things :)
but people owe me more haha.
interesting msn last night -grins- hope someone's hand and someone's feet heal faster :) than can run with me :DD looking forward to wednesday! finally. a day off ~

sometimes i wonder.
i shouldnt.

night all.




current earcandy: Falling for you; Jem

pierced ears with en :)
painnnn but oh well.
the neo machine was bullying us; ended up with darn hilarious shots
she has the honour being the first to see my new skirt
goodbye ol' short hot pink one

ssica made her obs sound very fun and very sad, wonder how the feburary group will turn out

waiting from a certain someone to come back from xiamen. haha.

yu ni fen xiang de kuai le
sheng guo du zi yong you




cel has a weird keyboard.
ahaha and a very cute soft toy cat
all american rejects playing now :D
gna play battleships

:)))




current earcandy: This is the last time, Keane

popping online whilst boss has left for lunch
stc's over :)
crazy and wonderful experience. proud to be part of the campers; caphazons (becca, en, mei, haiping, enid, karen, audrey, jan) we rock!
learnt and saw a lot. good and bad. leadership shows.

pitching tents with nana, ping and becca in school this morning (and ran to work cos I was gna be late) we laughed and sang until very high :)

gna pierce ears with en this saturday!
huang di :DD take care of your hand k?

feeling a lil spooked about a certain incident.
we are just friends? goodness.

love.




earcandy: Straitjacket Feeling, The All-American Rejects

morning world~

first proper day of working. found myself an amusing boss, laughs and sticks out her tongue. says I'm too shy haha.

medical supplies aint cheap. lol. ping, awyong and I gatecrashed mustafa after my work? went home way after my curfew.
AWYONG you rock. you simply do. thank you so much. (ming tian ma fan ni le)
hopefully ping & nana get well before STC!

wonder if anyone crashed prom. esp sicca~

bebe: dearrrr go check babe? updated le :DD

1 more day




frustrating night
uncontactable people please pick up da phone
lack of organisation leading to much unneeded chaos
last minute!-ROARS-

me against the world



3 more days




Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby

Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme

So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful accident
turbulent suculent opulent permanent,
no wayI wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed






currently playing: She's so high, kurt nilsen

job shadowing for the past week
could have been better
but wont be ungrateful :)
learnt loads on chocolates
karina; eugenia; becca; me
happily [& sadistically] sccribled "expired" and "expiring "all over chocolate boxes
becca and I came up with loads of entertaining songs :D modified several nurseries rhymes and cca songs lalala~ will get killed by a certain someone if she knows -hides-

kayaking today.
3 instructors, nice, funny, no comments respectively.
ping has my eternal grattitude :D
thanks for kayaking with me today.
it meant a lot~~
and even more sorry that you got scolded.
I feel damn bad.

NANA; SYLVIA
dont quit!!!
feel like quoting one of our banners~
"excellence; perserverance; npcc"

she's so high, high above me




earcandy: Dance Inside; The All-American Rejects

leadership camp on friday
me + ping = apple + shepherd style
aye. must change le~

saturday. 2 star kayaking.
I think I broke some record, imagine capsizing 6 times in a day. 5 times on purpose and 1 time when I tried fliping too hard. (why? because we are suppose to flip the kayak 360 degrees to pass) 6km expedition next week :DD or 8km if we can~

I almost lost a shoe.
becca really lost a shoe.

SYLVIA; JOANNA; REBECCA
dont quit please :X

sunday, went to cut my hair (happily ignoring the advice of about 10 people?)
I think I can officially wax it. shall go borrow :D

still clueless on what to wear for job-shadowing. hurr.
its darn surprising the whole squad knows about my hot pink skirt?

wish for you on a falling star




now playing: Feel Good Inc; Gorillaz

SANK YOU SUSHI AUNTIE :D
the one at the ntuc near ang mo kio library
you rock!

becca and I have come to a conclusion
if we fall for the same guy
(seeing as our tastes are similar)
we won't let him ruin our friendship :)

off to finish trial exams
before a very *cough motherly cough* sijia scolds me again

dan : at least I spice up NP life somehow :D
don't worry, am not an perpetually angsty OIC~

definitely maybe




thank you for replying :)
I learnt something today.




emotions only cloud the sky

mirage.
1: an optical illusion in which atmospheric refraction by a layer of hot air distorts or inverts reflections of distant objects
2: something illusory and unattainable
I almost forgot why this is my url.

rebekah,
hopefully you find my explanation satisfactory.
check your email~

back to exquisite deceit and lies




earcandy: POT driving myself

basking in the glory of anime for the past week :)
naruto + pot + saiyuki -grins-
still hoping fervently that sasuke does not turn evil
one can hope can't they?
it's amazing how much a cartoon show
can reduce you to fits of laughter or tears
eyecandy:
tsunade's boyfriend :D

stc precamp yesterday
do not have a good feeling about it
although I love my group to bits :)
talk about owing 900 in a day

20 minutes in push-up position
they didn't deserve self-punishment
their knees were raw
remember our promise

to those who ponned,
who didn't dread going yesterday?
I only have this to say:
cowards.




mieo, re-opening my blog for ya :)

Rules of the Game ::
Post 5 weird and random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Don't forgot to leave a comment that says "You're tagged." in their blog and tell them to read yours.

5 random and weird facts :
I) As a kid I used to be obsessed with fridges, I went to COURTS and opened every single one (roughly 30 +) glancing, poking at the interior

II) To date, I have a random collection of lime green stuff, starting from mieo's cup to some kuku ice cream stick, all of the exact same shade.

III) I love shoe acccesories :D like shoe necklace, rings, ear studs etc , some weird fettish I guess.

IV) I would like to dye my hair white someday.

V) My toenails have a decor of black or glitter nail polish at the moment.

5 lucky people in random order :D ::
I) SA
II) AWYONG
III) CELESTIA
IV) JOYCE
V) SYLVIA

bebe:: your version's slightly different -grins-




red m&ns are like saga seeds
brown ones like coffee beans
orange m&ns resemble medicine pills
green ones look exactly like fertilisers
blue m&ns are beads on a necklace
yellow ones?
they're just gifts from you to me :)

randomness~~

goodbye to you.
goodbye to everything I knew.
you were the one I loved,
the one thing I tried to hold on to




when the top of the world falls on you
the art of losing




Johnny wanna be a big star
Get on stage and play the guitar
Make a little money, buy a fancy car
Big old house and an alligator
Just to match with them alligator shoes
He's a rich man so he's no longer singing the blues
He's singing songs about material things
And platinum rings and watches that go bling
But, diamonds don't bling in the dark
He a star now, but he ain't singing from the heart
Sooner or later he's just gonna fall apart
Coz his fans can't relate to his new found art
He ain't doing what he did from the start
And that's putting in some feeling and thought
He decided to live his life shallow
Passion is love for material
And its gone... gone... going...

Gone... everything gone... give a damn...
Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing...
Gone people... up awkward with their things... gone.

You see yourself in the mirror
And you feel safe cause it looks familiar
But you afraid to open up your soul
Cause you don't really know, don't really know
Who is, the person that's deep within
Cause you are content with just being the native brown man
And you fail to see that its trivial
Insignificant, you addicted to material
I've seen your kind before
You're the type that thinks souls is sold in a store
Packaged up with inscent sticks
With them vegetarian meals
To you that's righteous
You're fiction like books
You need to go out to life and look
Cause what happens when they take your material
You already sold your soul and its

And its gone... gone... going...
Gone... everything gone... give a damn...
Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing...
Gone people... up awkward with their things... gone.

You say that time is money and money is time
So you got mind in your money and your money on your mind
But what about that crime that you did to get paid
And what about that bid, you can't take it to your brain
Why you on about those shoes you'll wear today
They'll do no good on the bridges you burnt along the way

All that money that you got gonna be gone
That gear that you rock gonna be gone
The house up on the hill gonna be gone
The gold on your grill gonna be gone
The ice on your wrist gonna be gone
That nice little Miss gonna be gone
That whip that you roll gonna be gone
And what's worst is your soul will be gone

Gone going- BEP




I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

True- Ryan Cabrera




learnt a lot yesterday in many aspects
I miss the simplicity of life
Poetry session was most inspiring;
Miss suchen christine lim was the highlight of the night

so many people have fallen ill
allyssa, kaili, cecilia get well soon!
... especially mieo. -nods-

guess I used to take people for granted
ping; come back to school :)
I feel accomplished!
made my own layout for the first time ever -grins-

how fragile are bonds
like flames licking paper
brinking on oblivion




elections today
all the candidates were impressive
in their own right
admire their courage to speak out
wish they didnt all fight for the same cause though
would have spiced up this election rally

dear melanie
I would kindly appreciate not being called
"queen bee" every time you walk pass
BUMBLE BEE yourself lol.
but you look cute. serious -grins-
bumble bee campaign team rocks XD

OBS looks fun :)
sounds super np-ish though -.-

I'm sorry I mean so little to you
if you don't care, so be it.

I'm not that naive




I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything

Field of innocence- Evanescence




[It starts with]
One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know, time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal, didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
One thing, I don’t know why
Doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how I tried so hard
Despite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

Linkin Park- In the end




exams finally over :)
<= yoanna
ANTM cycle 2 winner
kirei~

clique outing today
unexpected attendance
reaqquainted with a friend~
and yes I am very much impressed by your stamina
walking/ shopping for 7 hours is not my forte
and I doubt it will ever be
discovery of the day: retro is in
I can't believe anyone would wear
the assortment of pearls/ feathers/gaudy flowers/ wooden thingy?
interesting names for daughters to be:
gucci, prada, takashimaya, sasa, armani,
guess, versace, elle, adidas, nike, bebe, baba?
haha hugo boss
LETTUCE
don't overthink
sometimes it's just a slip of mind?
TENIPU
don't get mad
it's not worth pouting for -grins-

Thought of the day:
incessant messaging won't get into someone's good books, at least not mine.

there are many versions of the truth. pick one.
go figure.
I didn't know we meant so little to you.




I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

You and I have lived through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

Cry - James Blunt




3 Diligence is sparkling clean today
tables that are near glowing
way cool blackboard
dust free floors (well mostly)
and windows in tip top see through condition :)
isn't it wonderful to have a clean class? -hints-

The day before all the exams
EEK! >.< study study study
mug mug mug
grades grades grades
[ yes I am trying to convince myself]

results will reflect effort put in
hopefully nothing comes to naught
marks are after all important enough
but no, am not gonna kill myself over them

squadmates [study mates!] ; veggies; scandalous fam; 3d

may lady luck chose to shine upon you~

hey stay with me; this is the last of illusions

good luck for eoys everyone :)

Cause I wanna run away run away run away




if the world gets in my face
I say have a nice day



only almost here




forever angel

yesterday's recess was interesting
popping bright red balloons at lower concourse
and frightening the poor sec ones? oops. haha.
balloon sticks + gold ribbons make a cute bouquet
insightful chat yesterday on future ambitions
still clueless though

we changed seats today
will miss ostrich and giraffe -grins-
am sadly sitting in the front row again.
at least I will most definitely be paying attention in class
and I have a inspirational partner!
hopefully she will motivate me to work as hard as she does~

interesting day :)
volleyball was funnn!
dodging eraser bits
reading a very entertaining love story

shine your light down on me
lift me up so I can see
shine your light when you're gone
give me the strength to carry on




watched a charity show on hurricane katrina today
they were playing green day
wake me up when september ends
reflective mood now~
dont take anything for granted yeah?
am grateful for all I have :)

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are




She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after

[Chorus:]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

The way she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for




I wanna be bad
make that look so good
I've got things on my mind
never thought I would
make that feel so good
I'm losing all my cool
I'm about to break the rules
I wanna be bad




NO MORE BLOGGING OR EVEN LOGGING IN
TIL O LEVELS CHINESE IS OVER
31ST OCTOBER.
I HAVE 1 MONTH AND 25 DAYS TO GO
ITS NOT THAT BLOODY LONG
I BETTER KEEP TO THIS COMMITMENT




wishing things were the way they used to be




I wish things were how they used to be
I guess I don't try hard enough yet
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
it's not easy to be me




would it be crazy to say
i love lessons
i hate homework
and i think about my cca
every waking moment of my life
now thats what i call obsession
oh well

it wasnt that long ago
that i broke down due to the pressure
of both cca and academics
my expectations are sky high for both areas
not going to achieve anything less
i can go ahead and CRY
it won't help me now will it?
learning to be strong.
worst case scenario if ping goes into exco
i promise to be strong
i promise to be tough
i promise to give up my former self for the unit

for my cca
i gave up who i used to be
i grew up
i grew out of my clique
for both cca and class
and now, i'm not sure who i'm
or who i wanna be.
KEEP DA FAITH XIANG.
i can do it.




hm, will be a random post
thanks to everyone who stayed back
and helped to clean 3diligence
whilst i was rushing away for np
much love

quite screwed up muster parade
was bad. stumbled, stuttered
gave weird timings + commands
sighhh

postmortem was inspirational to say the least
time to reflect~

listening to vertigo now
crapp i miss drills com
and my laogong haha :)




SANK YOOS :
-3 diligence for the chocolate cake, nail art thingy, paper dolls and bookmark :)
-sqaudmates for the super cute giraffe b'day card!
[sniffling at the bus stop haha]
-xinhui for the 4 pens, the most practical present
-meiling for the stash of marshmellow, sweetened my day
-jessica for my earings so kirei~,and the magnetic mouse XDD
-tenipu for birthday blog XD
-jocelyn for the birthday card
-mieoteng for the necklace
-sai for the super delicious panda biscuits ;)
-tracey, crystal for letter and happy house photo frame
-ryder for the way cool card and slippers, am impressed.

i beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
since the dawning of the rest of our lives




am finally starting to blog
cos i need to vent my mood swings somewhere!
haha my kouhai was super super cute today
one red + one yellow in the midst of all the greenest
picking up twigs to do teachers day card
so kuku -grins-

understand this
my standards are high
expecting you to meet it
is not unreasonable
i'm not obliged to stay back to 7 plus
for you to finish your proposal
i dont seek for your appreciation
i merely hope for some sense of cooperation

and squadmates, reflect please
is this the standard that you want to give?
good lord.




back off




I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie '
Bout a home I'll never see

It might sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream

It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away, away from me
Well, it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight

I'm not crazy or anything
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me

I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
I'm only a man looking for a dream
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
And it's not easy
It's not easy to be me




closed

gone and not gone




carpe diem
out of my league

happy belated birthday sylvia :)
am sure we're gna get the chip and dale for you soon!

happy early birthday jess :)
all parts on monday -grins-

yh ma'am
you command my respect.
I salute you.


I don't want to let you know
I, I drown in your memory
I, I don't want to let this go
I, I don't





happpppy birthday :)
am damn touched?
-grins-

HII.
rebecca here.
wishing you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY XDD
YOU ARE OLD! 8D
celeryy

... haha i don't feel old :P




confused; guilty
but more freedom then before
gotta draw the line.




away for a while
my life's a mess
it's time to get things in order




somebody kill me please
in a city without a past
one day you'll die
but I'll keep on living
you think that's fun?!
for you, I would give my life
I had enough
you go on.
I can't go alone.
Don't leave!
we thought those days would never end.
moonchild.




archery rocks :D
although I can't really shoot
and currently my left arm hurts
from getting hit[twice? thrice?] by the bowstring
so fun XDD

too much of a good thing is a bad thing
namely ice cream;
lugged home a giant box for the low cost of $2
sufffered mild panic attacks as
it threatened to melt at the bus stop
gave it my chair
kept it in the shade
stood in the sun to provide it with my shadow

ironic thing is...
the ice cream helped in family bonding
my aunt helped me lug it home
me, dad, sis, mom armed ourselves with laddles/ spoons
trying to spilt the ice cream into smaller sections
the thing was too big to fit into my freezer
think my grandma was the most cool
with a few strokes of a chopper
she finished the job

wondering now,
if the ice cream was worth all the effort
all who happen to be in the area
are welcomed to drop by my humble abode
free servings of ice cream.
ben and jerry's berry flavour :p

you caught my eye
as you walked on by




Watching you from a distance
Your beautiful face
Your etheral eyes
Your laughing smile
Laughing so quietly, mocking me

Even...longing for you
The cold and beautiful you
You who could understand
You who kept the secrets most
The shadows and the darkness behind that smile
That quiet quiet smile
That secret laughing face, mocking me

Moon who caught my soul through enchanted eyes
Moon who flashes soft dreams of etheral light
Who smiles that secret smile
With that secret face
Laughing quietly, mocking me

laughing voices that danced on
everchanging silver strands
on lacquer nightsand
the quiet quiet moonlight




am a happy girl today :)
started off disappointed
because of the rain.
they cancelled the parade.
know that dear ping was very xintong
she memorised all her commands already ~
nvm ping, nvm GOH contingent :)
there's still tomorrow!

went back to class to rehearse national day poem thingy
sa ended up in the cheongsam and fan -smiles innocently-
caused quite a commotion yep.
enjoyed looking like a coolie~
happily paired up with the broom and dirty rag as
teo hoo lye arrived at aged barely 12
and went to work in his uncle's chap he tiam
sweeping the floor, weighing out rice, packing sugar
Nightly he swallowed his tears all the way to his stomach
he became a grocer then ventured into the copra trade
he died owning ships and sago factories riverside at havelock

3 diligence won first for the poem/skit competition! -jumps around-
the effort was worth it :D
haha. and so does the sobbing like a baby of teo loo lye.
took class and connexio photos~

clique outing.
realised today that I'm highly posessive
and that I don't like to share certain things; people
was civil the whole day -nods-
and if this happens again, count me out?
no point putting on a facade.

on a lighter note
all of us pigged out at plaza sing
banana, yoghurt and hazelnut ice cream -grins-
movie queue there was o.o
proceeded over to toa payoh to try our luck
ended up catching bewitched [preview] at 4pm
shopped at random parts of tp
went to sleep/ read magazines/ stone at tp library to kill time

bewitched was great -grins-
gotta admit nicole kidman outshone will ferell by miles.
her blue eyes are real striking; the blond curls a lil too matronly?
she looked gorgeous in every scene.
will ferell on the otherhand
suceeded in being a comedian much more than a heart throb?
the pairing's a lil weird.

random quotes :
"I want to argue about what colour to paint the kitchen too!"
Isabel (nicole kidman) to her dad on being normal.

"The cutest hopeless mess of a man."
Isabel on Jack(will ferell).

"Hey pretty lady, heal my soul, bring me to your promise land! Promise land! Promise land!"
Jack's attempt at songwriting to impress Isabel. I almost fell off my seat laughing.

Isabel : "Where's home?"
Dad: "Where you're the happiest."

was a happy magical romance movie.
definitely bring smiles,
esp when will ferell starts being retarded.
had a happy almost fairytale ending~
so sweet -melts-




oh man oh man
have just been saying commands to my lil sis
she says I sound weird o.o

hmm, ndp training will finally be over soon
will miss the times we spend training together
wondering vaguely if I'm too fierce
since most of the juniors are already scared of me?
am somewhat amused.
think the way I scold cannot really make it?
joanna said that I seem like two different people
when i'm scolding and when i'm not
someone please tell me if i do go overboard

crossing my fingers for class skit on monday
hopefully everything goes well
am looking forward to seeing 3diligence acting
am gonna look weird on monday
jessica promised she'll be laughing. ~

dont like myself.
cant even get someone to leave me alone.
no repeats of today. ever.
awkward day...
never felt so much like running away in my life.
need someone to hear me out.
get over, get over me baby
anything goes from now

To know nothing may be happiness
But I know I surely won't be satisfied with that

Even though the night may stretch out infinitely
I only wish to live the path I've choosen
Your speed resembles mine
Losing the will to stop,
I become fearful of the sky
When can I stop working hard?

If it were the two of us,
we can end it
I've choosen a path that can never be easy,
no matter what I do

Not being able to brush off
the smears of sand from my shoe,
There's no other way in which I can live
If it were you,
you'd surely be in the laughter of summer

To know nothing may be happiness,
but I know I surely won't be satisfied with that




awkward day
guai guai de
at least it's over
i like jay's songs now :)
esp anjing~

ni yi jing yuan yuan li kai
wo ye hui man man zou kai
wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
shi ying wei wo tai ai ni




peeps [esp those frm np]
wristbands for sale :)
all for a good cause.
help out in the PRESIDENT'S CHARITY
by purchasing one of these
red and yellow wristbands
at an extremely low cost of $2

anyone interested please come find me.
I promise to be an excellent sales girl
polite, hospitable and eternally cheerful
and yes, customer is king.
-grins-





happiness is a choice
therefore i choose to be happy everyday :)

had lots of fun with squadmates last friday and today~
went home with awyong last fri
miss talking to her XD
serviced (kinda ^^;;) rifles after NDP training today
weather was wonderful'
drills are improving~
jiayou jiayou dears!!
only a few days more to the actual parade!
although there were certain things that wasnt perfect
i'm still happy :)

I laugh myself to sleep, it's my lullaby




earlier today
was going
somebody please shoot me
i'm in some deep trouble
was flipping my house upside down
searching for a certain very important object
all I succeeded was creating a giant mess
and causing my nose to flood from all the dust
I think I used up half the tissue box


was close to hysteria and panic
when I suddenly had a spark
and remembered where I had placed it
instantly felt sense of relief that I can't put into words
was hugging my mom like mad
(she assisted in flipping the house upside down too)


the point is
am not going to let it out of my sight
ever again.


depression and euphoria in the same day
am in a unbelievably good mood now


peeps, please take care of anything treasured
losing things ain't fun.
nose is still flooding >.<


just to add :)
finished harry potter and the half blood prince
enjoyed the plot twists like usual
was surprising numb to dumbledore's death
seeing as he is my favourite character of all time
althought I would love to strangle snape
didnt end up in tears unlike sirius when he died
did not really like the pairings though
guess fanfiction has long ago made an impact
harry and ginny?
ron and hermione?
way too predictable




you used to matter.

quotes of da day:

today was the worst day ever
and tomorrow won't be better
-simple plan

the happiest day in my life is the day that I die
-good charlotte

...is it possible to be happily depressed?




Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting


And I wrote this letter in my head
Cause so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight


This could be the one last chance
To make you understand


I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cause somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cause I knowI won't forget you


Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back
So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be hereI'll be waiting


This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again


I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cause somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cause I knowI won't forget you


I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you





Miss independent
Miss self-sufficient
Miss keep your distance, no
Miss on her own
Miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her throne

So, by keeping her heart protected
She'd never ever feel rejected
Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love

What is the feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open the door
Surprise...It's time
To feel what's real

What happened to miss independent?
No more the need for me to miss him
Goodbye on you
Real love, true love is

Oooh...Miss independent walked away
I'm so glad I finally feel...
What is the feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open the door
Surprise (surprise), it's time
To feel (to feel) what's real
What happened to miss independent?
No one more the need for me to miss him
Goodbye on you
Real love, true love isReal...




"Winter" tori amos
Snow can wait
I forgot my mittens
Wipe my nose
Get my new boots on
I get a little warm in my heart
When I think of winter
I put my hand in my father's glove
I run off
Where the drifts get deeper
Sleeping beauty trips me with a frown

I hear a voice
"Your must learn to stand up for yourself
Cause I can't always be around"
He says
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear

Boys get discovered as winter melts
Flowers competing for the sun
Years go by and I'm here still waiting
Withering where some snowman was
Mirror mirror where's the crystal palace
But I only can see the myself
Skating around the truth who I am
But I know dad the ice is getting thin

When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear

Hair is grey
And the fires are burning
So many dreams
On the shelf
You say I wanted you to be proud of me
I always wanted that myself

He says
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses have gone ahead
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change
My dear




Say, Hey!
Hear the sound of the falling rain
Coming down like an Armageddon flame (Hey!)
The shame
The ones who died without a name

Hear the dogs howling out of key
To a hymn called "Faith and Misery" (Hey!)
And bleed, the company lost the war today

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
On holiday

Hear the drum pounding out of time
Another protestor has crossed the line (Hey!)
To find, the money's on the other side

Can I get another Amen? (Amen!)
There's a flag wrapped around a score of men (Hey!)
A gag, a plastic bag on a monument

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
On holiday

(Hey!)(Say, Hey!)
"The representative from California has the floor"

Zieg Heil to the president gasman
Bombs away is your punishment
Pulverize the Eiffel towers
Who criticize your government
Bang bang goes the broken glass and
Kill all the fags that don't agree
Trials by fire, setting fire
Is not a way that's meant for me

Just cause, just cause, because we're outlaws yeah!

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
This is our lives on holiday




Raindrops Will Fall

There's a time for every star to shine
And a place for every dream to see the light
When you have everything
You don't need another reason to be something
Hold on, and look to your faith
Can't let nobody, nobody get in your way

[Chorus]
I walked through the fire
Fought through the raging storm
Til I found the peace
That's inside of me
I've got to be strong
I stand for my dreams
I was made for this moment
Take me as I am
Or nothing at all
I'll keep holding on
Raindrops will fall

Haunting echoes from a careless word
You'll never know how much they hurt
Dreams are precious don't you know
But they are so hard to follow
Hold on and look to your faith
Don't let nobody, nobody get in your way

[Chorus]

I was taught not to run away
Cause raindrops will always fall on your face
When it seems like all hope is gone
Gotta get through the storm
Before you can see the dawn
This is all I am
This is all I know
And I won't never ever let go
No I won't let go

[chorus]




think my hiatus cannot make it
feel like blogging again/
so here i am :)

many many things have happened
ups and downs
highs and lows
everyone jiayou and stay positive through the gloom k?
am so proud that diligence got third
for the racial harmony poetry thing.
3D ROCK ON.

am trying to be strong.
wo bu hui ku le.
although it's coming out kinda cliche.
i need to learn how to take care of myself first
before i can worry about others.

i swear i will.




HIATUS.

I believe my life has just gotten a little more complicated.
-shakes head-
last post for a while
I need to seriously work on my time management skills.
there's so many things I need to and want to do :D
am banning myself from caffiene.
please shoot me if you catch me drinking coffee.
lesson of the day:
sleep is bliss.

scribble down secret messages in the sand
and watch the waves wash them away




rubies and gold;
star of my moonlight;
warmer than roses in spring;
the kingdoms were sold to hold their beauty;
rubies and gold;
you are... to me~




aint life just complicated?
and to make it worse
I'm beyond caring
since when did I get so apathetic?

joanna, sylvia, rebecca:
guess I really drifted from the you guys
I mean... I dont even know how to put it across.

you know who you are:
please stop doing this to yourself.
cherish yourself. please. there are many people concerned about ya spare them a thought?

the kids at amk are incredibly CUTE and nice
haha got pictures of them in my phone
I want to go back next week and use chinese to teach english again
Miss them already -grins-
must read up on naruto, I'm not that slow lol.
I absolutely refuse to lose to my pupil!

no more random sms-es please.
lol. skylancer.
does it matter if I'm school or not..?

let go.




ain't life just so complicated?
and i guess its worst
that i'm beyond caring.

rebecca, joanna, sylvia:
guess we really drifted huh?
I mean... -laughs-
I dont even know how to put it across.

you know who you are.
cherish yourself.
please stop it,
there are many people concerned about you,
why make them worry even more?
spare them a thought will ya?




It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories'

Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder..

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by'
Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I Don't want to let you know
I, I Drown in your memory
I, I Don't want to let this go
I, I Don't..

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder..
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by'
Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you..
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

missing the sec fours.




POP in 2 days time.
da jia hen lei le.
jiayous :)
add oil!~
POPCORN 05.
all the way people.
hopefully the first and last combined pop
was fun working with you guys.
esp that kelly -grins-
think my ma'am so rocks,
imagine being a reporter covering the
ioc voting for 2012 olympics.
am totally impressed.

all will be revealed. soon.




I was musing...
recently I saw a lot of blog posts or guestbook messages that say something along the lines of
have no regrets , do what you want to do, dont regret not doing something, death may just come knocking at your door.

the thing is, I'm pretty sure I'm not going to drop dead tomorrow
of course I'm not 100% sure but still I have the rest of my life to live, to bear with the consequnces of "what I want to do" and I guess it's precisely this wariness that creates order and stability?

sure, there are things that I would really regret I didnt do if I died tomorrow
in the same light, I would regret for a very long time if I actually did those things
death gives one a sense of recklessness and rashness
since I ain't gonna be around no longer, might as well just do it?

am getting all philosophical.
must be the stress.
shall type about the milk run some other day then.
my poor black brown shoes.





POPCORN `05
we rock :D
ADD OIL all the way
7 days more.
we can do it.

Live believing, dreams are for weaving
wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, faith, hope and glory
hold to the truth in your heart.






I'm sorry I'm not who I used to be
I'm sorry I can't turn back time
I'm sorry I can't be perfect




HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHEN!
it's in your favourite shade of brown -grins-
sorry, still make you buy sandwich for me
haha, glad you like that black shirt
jocelyn and I have good taste ;)
hope it fits, we took a while trying to figure out the size.

Happy birthday sohteng :DD
stay cheerful and happy!

am not stressed.
just tired.
thanks for the concern.
really appreciate it.




i wonder if anyone hasnt finished like 3/4 of their homework yet.
they are welcomed to join me tomorrow in doing last minute work.
-makes face-
you know things get real screwed when your light dies on you and suddenly find yourself typing in the darkness. and yes, when you sniff milk and your brain tells you it smells like potato chips.




haha.
can't remember the last time I got so angry
extremely disappointed and pissed.
torn between banging my head on the wall
or yelling my lungs out at the balcony.
RAHHH.

feel like laughing.
great. officially lost it.




a sorta fairytale here with you




yin wei ni
wo yi zhi zai tao bi

yi zhi pao, yi zhi pao
que tao bu diao

wo yi jing hen lei le
bu xiang zai pao xia qu




To see a world in a grain of sand
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
And eternity in an hour.
A robin redbreast in a cage
Puts all heaven in a rage.
A dove-house filled with doves and pigeons
Shudders hell through all its regions.
A dog starved at his master's gate
Predicts the ruin of the state.
A horse misused upon the road
Calls to heaven for human blood.
Each outcry of the hunted hare
A fibre from the brain does tear.
A skylark wounded in the wing,
A cherubim does cease to sing.
The game-cock clipped and armed for fight
Does the rising sun affright.
Every wolf's and lion's howl
Raises from hell a human soul.
The wild deer wandering here and there
Keeps the human soul from care.
The lamb misused breeds public strife,
And yet forgives the butcher's knife.
The bat that flits at close of eve
Has left the brain that won't believe.
The owl that calls upon the night
Speaks the unbeliever's fright.
He who shall hurt the little wren
Shall never be beloved by men.
He who the ox to wrath has moved
Shall never be by woman loved.
The wanton boy that kills the fly
Shall feel the spider's enmity.
He who torments the chafer's sprite
Weaves a bower in endless night.
The caterpillar on the leaf
Repeats to thee thy mother's grief
.Kill not the moth nor butterfly,
For the Last Judgment draweth nigh.
He who shall train the horse to war
Shall never pass the polar bar
.The beggar's dog and widow's cat,
Feed them, and thou wilt grow fat.
The gnat that sings his summer's song
Poison gets from Slander's tongue.
The poison of the snake and newt
Is the sweat of Envy's foot.
The poison of the honey-bee
Is the artist's jealousy.
The prince's robes and beggar's rags
Are toadstools on the miser's bags.
A truth that's told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent.
It is right it should be so:
Man was made for joy and woe;A
nd when this we rightly know
Through the world we safely go
.Joy and woe are woven fine,
A clothing for the soul divine.
Under every grief and pine
Runs a joy with silken twine.
The babe is more than swaddling bands,
Throughout all these human lands;
Tools were made and born were hands,
Every farmer understands.
Every tear from every eye
Becomes a babe in eternity;
This is caught by females bright
And returned to its own delight.
The bleat, the bark, bellow, and roar
Are waves that beat on heaven's shore.
The babe that weeps the rod beneath
Writes Revenge! in realms of death.
The beggar's rags fluttering in air
Does to rags the heavens tear.
The soldier armed with sword and gun
Palsied strikes the summer's sun.
The poor man's farthing is worth more
Than all the gold on Afric's shore.
One mite wrung from the labourer's hands
Shall buy and sell the miser's lands,
Or if protected from on high
Does that whole nation sell and buy.
He who mocks the infant's faith
Shall be mocked in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne'er get out.
He who respects the infant's faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child's toys and the old man's reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.
The questioner who sits so sly
Shall never know how to reply.
He who replies to words of doubt
Doth put the light of knowledge out.
The strongest poison ever known
Came from Caesar's laurel crown.
Nought can deform the human race
Like to the armour's iron brace.
When gold and gems adorn the plough
To peaceful arts shall Envy bow.
A riddle or the cricket's cry
Is to doubt a fit reply.
The emmet's inch and eagle's mile
Make lame philosophy to smile.
He who doubts from what he sees
Will ne'er believe, do what you please.
If the sun and moon should doubt,
They'd immediately go out.
To be in a passion you good may do,
But no good if a passion is in you.
The whore and gambler, by the state
Licensed, build that nation's fate.
The harlot's cry from street to street
Shall weave old England's winding sheet.
The winner's shout, the loser's curse,
Dance before dead England's hearse.
Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born.
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.
Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.
We are led to believe a lie
When we see not through the eye
Which was born in a night to perish in a night,
When the soul slept in beams of light.
God appears, and God is light
To those poor souls who dwell in night
,But does a human form display
To those who dwell in realms of day.




tori amos :)
she sounds nice.
I want beekeeper~
homework is a scary monster
so far i'm still running away from it. -sighs-
must be more disciplined.

dearest fuyume
haha, so you arent going to thailand after all :P am happy~ -jumps around-
was thinking that i might meet the ice-cream trio again at the bus stop without ya. I want to pierce my ears too, let's go together? -grins- you will be dearly missed if you went. just wanna let you know XD
ALICE9~~ I still think the bass player is pretty




dedicated to dearest allyssa

am unwritten
can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
the pen's in my hand
ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten




happy fathers day~
love ya lots :)





stressed like hell
homework is really screwed
i'm not even joking
and i really want to finish all of it
how can i let my academics drop?

i miss my friends like nuts'
hm, but half of them dont even care
gosh. a simple clique outing
arrange like hell
if you dont want to go
stop making us switch the dates around for you
i dont need this kinda things
lol. i cant be bothered anymore
i love my friends to bits honest
but there's a limit to my tolerance
then there goes the messy like anything relation web in 3 diligence
i wanna get away frm it all
really

12.30 in the morning doing proposal and lit essay
wonderfulness
i have less sleep in the june holidays then in school'
am just gonna puke blood
i feel like not caring
like aw yong with pop and shooting
or sa, cos of her mom
one man show again
sighhh. dont blame then
but gosh. haha, i'll die i know'




today's weird
ups and downs
off to finish lit essay
yes am worried again
for so many people

noir et blanc

shades of grey//
yet another one-man show




al: doing physics project now. not really. haha more of playing around, spamming people's tagg. haha nvm, since its not mine anyway.
me: haha, we look as if we got nothing better to do eh.. but the physics project is damn spast?
al: XIANGLING JUST DELETED HER ENTIRE SENTENCE. PRO SIA. SO STUPID -SHAKES HEAD-
me: -hides face- haha, okay, as i was saying, yuting was being random haha. and yes, for the second time, your mouse is tiny get it? haha, its cute lar:) yuting is running around with the mouse now. -grins- dont know what she is trying to do~
al: yuting ah i know my mouse very amusing, but dont do stupid things like trying to see how far it can reach right? tsktsk
yuting: STOP MAKINFUN OF ME!!!
al: yuting is a computer idiot. so many typos
me: "makinfun"? -smirks-
al: xiangling and yuting stop being childish and play around with my mouse and keyboard! -ahbish-
yuting: think their typo even worse...
we havent finish project leh:( all bcos of these two stupid gal
me: wna die ah? -glares-
al: -xiangling and al punches yuting on the left and right eye respectively-
me: *censored cos it's a PG blog haha
yuting: no need cos -yuting hides-
al: good. hide under the table and be our leg rest.
yuting: i beat ur up den ur noe -smirk-
me: yuting ah, bu yao bu zi liang li~
yuting: xiangling sux at using the mouse. lolx
me: -.-
al: xiangling is growling now. hohohoh


copyrighted 2005
dont think of stealing haha;)




Post interview
it's over
what else do you want me to say?
I did okay I guess~
I got targeted with all the sec 4 NCO questions.
made me reflect upon myself. -nods-

SANA course.
nothing of much interest? Except I got back toggether with the guys of squad 1 for LMSC. Just my luck that they happen to be the most dao and most awkward guys in squad 1 to be around with. Much yayness. Role play was -.- was hiding from the air con at the corner of the lecture hall, that the sir went "Are you that cold?" Promptly heads turned. I was hugging my full uniform. lol.
The clocks they gave for souveniers are super cute :) PURPLE colour haha.

jess you're absolutely wonderful to go down to spotlight with me twice to get the photo frames :) hopefully you had fun with the sec 1s for road marshall?

becca, haha. his shoes are more eye-catching than him. -nods- and yes my standards are high. go play basketball?

went to xh's house today. haha. damn cute larr
the way you cook instant noodles~
jiayou for shooting prelims this friday! ke yi de!
then went to orchard with tong
was one hour and a half late
DU TONTONG IS WONDERFULLY PATIENT AND SWEET AND NICE :)
yes, caught mr and mrs smith, wandered around for a short while later, it's nice to shop! I love our neoprints -grins- it's the prettiest I've taken in a while? Both of us look good~ -grins brightly- Then ran to takashimaya to find food to eat In our skirts and jackets and sports shoe. Bet we were an amusing sight along orchard road.

am sleepy~




blasting linkin park and eminem
which is causing my family to go o.o
I need something to vent my emotions
this is so unlike me.

let go of yesterday.




decided.
seriously thought it through.
not gonna change my mind
found my direction
not for glory nor tittle
but for things I truly care about
I want it.
I can do it.
competiton's welcomed
no hard feelings. at all.
And no matter what happens,
i'll still love my squad.
i'll be happy whatever post I get
and I will do my best for it.
that's all that matters, isnt it?


if you want it
go and get it
have the confidence to shout it out loud
loud enough for the whole world to know
there's nothing to be shy about
there's nothing to hide




confused
the long talk yesterday
changed my perspective
reinforced beliefs
created doubts
am re-evaluating my options
post interview in 2 days
seriously weighing everything
well, don't have to worry
about not having anything to say
hurr

honesty is the best policy
...is it?




yet again
screwed up
am at a loss for words

at least its all over
those who tried your best
there's no reason for regrets

boots started cracking
at the beginning of bearing
am gonna scrape them
and start from scratch
don't know whether to weep or laugh

xinhui, i admire your courage
for being the only one
to raise up your hand at that moment
jiayou dear :)




am a happy girl today :)
super proud of our squad
getting almost all the awards~

liping & nicholas looks kawaii together ne?
speaking of which, jie larp sir looks cute too. -grins-
he's damn comical
and dances banana dance like a pro -nods-
[shuxiang, xinhui] right?

jess, thanks for coming over! :D
my boots look shiny~

dedicated to LMSC course
and to our squad 1 CI,
who made us memorise the following quote:

A true leader has the confidence to stand alone
the courage to make tough decisions
the compassion to listen to the needs of others

He does not set out to become a leader
but becomes one
by the quality of his actions
and the integrity of his intent

In the end, leaders are much like eagles
they don't flock
you find them one at a time




broke down today
crying on the phone
talking to jocelyn
if you got something against me, say so
saying behind my back hurts more
i understand
damn. china trip tmr
haven't even started packing.




hm, my blog entries are gonna be one-liners soon.
thanks to those who go the extra mile for me.
even to the point of getting injured.
grateful and guilty.

a million and one things to do
must and will finish them. somehow.

NE trail today.
enjoyed the boat ride
although pretty much screwed up
whatever I was suppose to say.

tired.
who isn't?




guilt-ridden.
i'm sorry.

no more excuses.




my chem is seriously in trouble.
I need a tutor.
I don't understand nearly everything.

sijia, I will take extremely good care
of your dearest magazine. -nods- don't worry :D

handball today. I feel sorry for whoever's the goalkeeper. the netballers are kowaii desu. will be playing football next term. haha, bet some people will be very happy.

raced to finish literature questions
my sitting partner is too scary
she does everything so well. :/
free period as physics teacher wasn't around
was entertained by my class XD
and mabel's fanclub outside~

stayed back to help the pQMs with the room.
was not much help. >.<
rebecca- I had no clue that you dreamt of me -grins- pigged out with my sduadmates at macdonalds later am gna grow fat if I keep eating fries and mayonaise~today was fun :D

wo de tian kong
xing xing dou liang le




am in a unnaturally good mood :D
for those who know
I have officially gotten over
took me long enough~
feel... free~
lalalala.
okay now i sound retarded.

summer sunshine




Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder..

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder..
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I Don't want to let you know
I, I Drown in your memory
I, I Don't want to let this go
I, I Don't..

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder..
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you..

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

vanesa carlton




tired.
so many things
went wrong at the same time.
feel that I haven't done enough
in certain aspects
feel that I'm doing everything
in other areas
the irony.

jiayou for probation
we must improve people! :)
we can do it!

solitude.




hiatus.
`until further notice.




The music video for tong hua is super sweet
was quite touching. :)
am feeling a bit sad now.
after watching.

going on a long long hiatus.
don't think i'll have time to blog anymore

discovery of the day
pandas are CUTE! XD
and yes, I mean real pandas
with reference to one in particular~




finished tourism + industries
-feels accomplished-
JIAYOU for elective exam everyone!

you shi hou
kan bu dao shi xing fu
wo kan bu dao :)




xi huan ni
xiang ai ni
xiang shuo zhen xin hua
lu ye xu hai chang
dan ai yi chu fa
wo ye xu tai sha
que yi dian ye bu jia
xiang kan zhe ni xiao
pei zhe ni nao
rang wo ai ni ba.

Your Birthdate: August 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense. Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise. You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease. You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them. A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

had phototaking session
for the uniform groups today.
to my five squadmates,
heads will roll
if that super spastic + act cute picture
turns out in public.
I'm not photogenic.
the photographer was super lame
the poses made me twitch. literally.
had a -.-l|| expression.
at least it's over.
maybe he'll lose the film or something?
-looks hopeful-
one can always hope~ *crosses fingers*

rebecca/ rebekah: probably only watching moonchild
after geog elective exam. damn, I 'm so temmpted.
gackt-sama beckons. -stares at geog textbk-
MUST MUG HARD!
hurr. don't know how I'm gonna get past this exam.
-looks at mieo-
yi qi jiayou ba?




hmmm, this post is dedicated to tong
dear niece
I don't know what to say -grins-
I'm .. not depressed?
I'm just broke.
haha, that's out of point.




hmmm, am finally updating.
at the request of jocelyn, sylvia and mieo.
-nods-

went for tanya chua's concert on wednesday.
she sings like a siren
am officially a tanya fan
will get her cd... when I'm less broke
did something naughty
well.. was actually an extremely amused bystander.
but it's a secret :P
-looks at the 3 culprits-

thursday
screwed up four-man for flag raising
hm, senior had to yell, "Turn!"
this is ridiculous. -shakes head-
will not commit similar mistakes again!
will use my right hand to say pledge
hm.. . stayed back to do np board.
thinks it looks real nice now. -nods-

sports day. friday.
yellow won. :D
am super proud of yellow house~
kudos to other houses
since 3diligence has red, blue ,green house com members
can tell how hard they've worked for sports day.
was cheering. even though I wasn't supposed to
guarding the prize table with sa.
hur, pray that we don't end up in connexio.

hm.. first time taking charge as probate
didn't know whether to laugh/ scream or cry
at some situations.

wonder if anyone noticed the ten guys hanging outside our schl gate
for almost the whole sports day.
a lot of people got injured.
the red house cheerleader was wincing
yanfen's leg seemed to hurt, just before the race
but she got first anyway. :)

my family went out for dinner tonight
my gran got stuck at the toilet
due to a faulty lock
had no idea an old lady could cause so much commotion
among the staff and customers.
feel bad saying this, but found it damn hilarious
to see the chef looking over the toilet door
with the frying thingy still in his hand
the manager arrived with a toolbox? lol.
my aunt figured out how to open the door in the end. -grins-
the whole time, tong hua was playing over the radio.

miss independant,
keep your distance.




pioneering is over.
I feel neutral.
I really could see all the effort put in
all the sweat, blisters, rope burn
but somehow we still were over an hour late?
don't know what to feel.

squadmates: I feel damn proud of you guys.
I'm extremely grateful for the encouragement,
for the sms, tags or verbal jiayou.
I really needed them. :)

liping: am glad to work with such a positive partner
who kept me sane and smiling for the past week.
rest well, take care, rmb your homewk!
love ya.

leading ain't easy.
have been reflecting upon my own performance.
wondering about how probation will be like.
must jiayou jiayou le.
balancing schoolwork and cca, is gonna be tough.